Memories

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there are things that are meant to be kept as memories forever.. keep it, lock it and throw it away... holding on to 1 memories will never make you move forward.. hoping it would be keep and cherish for a long period of time is not a good idea.. sometime memories could be used as ur guidance for your future.. as a lesson in life.. some might say it's like a bad dream or a good dream.. depend on how we dealt with it.. good memories are meant to be keep.. while the bad one are meant to be a lesson.. some might think it's hunting one self.. but never did they think it my be a good reminder to never did it again.. as we went farther in life we collect bits and pieces of  memories for us to remember and cherish.. never felt despair/ down.. for each of the memories are special for each individual person.. for what we have become now is from how and what kind of experience we've been thru.. at some point in life.. you may breg and felt stupid remembering the kind of stuff you've been in..be thankful and be proud because the experience you've been thru won't be happening to others.. it's special just for youuu..

one thing for sure.. holding on to one memories won't help you getting anywhere.. let it go and move one..  be humble and be brave for what might come later is a new memories to be kept and cherish..  "you can't buy experience elsewhere.." unless you experience it yourself.. same goes as memories.. each and everyone of them are special.. you can't buy them rather experience them/go thru them yourself.. smile, chin up, and move forward !


p/s : like always.. i'm half asleep.. by the time my body started to shut down my brain just decide to work their ass off..




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