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For the past 23 years, i've been through some shit and some good moment. But somehow.. shit always happen in my life.. why? at some part in my life i've been through depression thinking whether i'm mad or i'm just weird. i'm still trying to figure out my path. whereas all my friend have gone through much in their life.. why am i still here? i'm still having problem with all my past and present relationship. my love life is a mess. nothing work out well, it's always be me that were left alone. i'm still dealing with dyslexia. i'm still struggling trying to finish my degree. i'm still struggling to maintain my pointer to not be under 3.0.. Am i that stupid? how can my friend have better grades? how are they so good in their study? do i look retarded? when all this question and low self esteem thinking..came all at once, makes me wanna kill myself. Makes me wanna go insane. ... ... what i hate to hear is.. "you are a muslim how can u be depr

Its been awhile.. this would be my first post ever since..i don't know.. forever.. but hye.. i used to post about my life and my thought here ever since i was 15.. but yeah my past life and story are very stupid couldn't even bear to read it so i've decided to delete all of them and start all over again.. so here i am 8 years later.. still small and probably still clumsy and stupid.. so this would be simple introduction i'll be posting more in future.. n please don't get annoyed by my writing since i probably be telling my story in 'malayglish'. sooooo for all you grammar nazi out there please don't stay here longer then 2 second.. your eyes probably gonna burnnnnn baby burnnnnn..  have a nice day love, see yahh in my next post ~