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hi ! it's been awhile, been having depressing thought this past weeks. But somehow, i have friends and husband by my side this time around. i'm lucky to have friends that can see sign that i'm not okay even thru chatting. i'm lucky to have husband that know what to ask and know to hear me out. i'm happy.. i'm bless with them by my side.  the pressure 'working from home' during this pandemic is hard. lucky i dont have any kids yet.. can't even imagine the stress coming from it. its hard, when you are used to do everything yourself. but now you are relaying on somebody else to help with your work. the perks of 'working from home' felt like sh*t.  it turn into deep stress when the same damn thing you keep on doing over and over again..  woke up - make breakfast- meeting- shower- meeting- clean house-make dinner- sleep. i'm leaving in a loop for a moment. its depressing... as if that is my life now, and i'm tired.  flooded with house work

hi ! it's been awhile.. few days flown by because of Quarantine. to be honest i'm stress.. super stress.. Working from home is not fun.. being pregnant alone is not fun. don't get me wrong.. i'm still married, but my husband is working in another state. total up till this day.. it has been 2 month since i last saw him. handling pregnancy by yourself is hard, plus i'm still new to this. i did do my research, asking people and stuff. but just imagine waking up in the middle of the night in pain no one could help you. u just have to sit there and hope the pain goes away faster.. i've been having on and off fever almost every night. i felt useless at some point. and all i could feel is depress.. to be honest i should eat a bunch to fuel up myself. but i can't even force my self to eat because of stress. and i felt more miserable because i'm a bad mother for being depress and i didn't at least eat for my baby.. i'm a useless mother..and my child i