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assalamualaikum ! new day new post.. probably a little better then the previous post.. so.. i'm getting a little better then before, probably i just realize that i should talk to someone rather then just keep it quiet with me.. i think i'm getting a little bit better.. i think.. i don't really sure.. but i now realize, if your partner dislike u being u.. just dump em ! LOL!but i'm grateful and lucky to have this person with me.. we talk and discuss.. cried a little bit. i'm still in my recovery mode.. i think so.. i wrote this post.. just because i don't want to give bad vibe from my past post.. n i hope everyone achieve happiness in their life and their current relationship. i still have my ups n down moods.. and i still have trouble in dealing with my moods and emotion.. where little things triggered me and makes me cry. his just being him and treat me good.. i'm beyond thankful for my partner for being super patience in dealing with me and i hope thi

Assalamualaikum, whats up ! been awhile.. but here i am.. recently i just turn 24y/o.. shocking really.. how to act like 20's actually?  for the past years i've being me (the obnoxious and immature)  for almost forever.. for the past week i felt i've been giving my partner a hard time with our relationship.. basically just me.. being me.. i've been thinking for a long time.. how is it 'me' gonna be a good adult.. a mature and very wise (probably) adult. how is it 'me' gonna handle a marriage life? how can 'me' handle having kids with all this attitude and act. i've decided to change it.. i try to change everything.. try to be the best for my partner and probably for our future.. but somewhere in side me.. i felt wrong.. because it is not me.. as if im pretending to be someone else.. but i'm thinking this is for the sake of my partner.. i know he never ask for it.. but its just me that realize i need to change for him.. and for peop