i'll show you how depression works..

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when people ask me.. and condemn me about my depression as if it is not that serious and it was just a joke.. arguing me with whatever i do to overcome this problem with some shit that i don't really give a fuck.. like seriously man, do u really wanna see how bad i could get if i did not do anything about it.. if i try my hard to be someone else.. or try my hard to show others that i am ok.. that i am not stress at all.. do u wanna see how mad i could get?


mental illness is not a joke. if my life is a joke to you.. just walk away bruhh.. 
i don't even wanna deal with ur attitude.. its just making my depression a lot more worst. 



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