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there are things that are meant to be kept as memories forever.. keep it, lock it and throw it away... holding on to 1 memories will never make you move forward.. hoping it would be keep and cherish for a long period of time is not a good idea.. sometime memories could be used as ur guidance for your future.. as a lesson in life.. some might say it's like a bad dream or a good dream.. depend on how we dealt with it.. good memories are meant to be keep.. while the bad one are meant to be a lesson.. some might think it's hunting one self.. but never did they think it my be a good reminder to never did it again.. as we went farther in life we collect bits and pieces of  memories for us to remember and cherish.. never felt despair/ down.. for each of the memories are special for each individual person.. for what we have become now is from how and what kind of experience we've been thru.. at some point in life.. you may breg and felt stupid remembering the kind of stuff you'...

how many wrong will i do in future that u will keep on forgiving me? how many wrong that have i did that you were always there to forgive me.. how many stupid and messed up mess that will i go thru that u still be there to forgive me? why are you like this? what did i do to deserve you? i've done a bunch of stupid things.. speak poorly to you.. why are you still here?i've done many bad thing to you.. but never did i remember any bad things that you did to me... because there were none.. is it a bless? is it a test? i'm in much doubt.. for what i know.. i should appreciate the moment that i have right now.. even though i will never know what will the future bear.. but what is happening in present is a bless.. thank you for trying to heal me in many ways that i believe you were unaware off... thank you for the laughter and solution in all my problems.. thank you for always be there when i needed someone to cry with and to talk too.. never did i remember you were complaining w...

i thought i was fine, i guess im not.. i thought i was with the right person, i guess im not.. i thought i've found the best friend that i would ever had, i guess not.. im wrong.. i was blind.. the person that i love the most betrayed me.. the person that i believe the most, my 'best friend' betrayed me..maybe its true.. 'love' does makes people blind.. the fact that i am in a toxic relationship but i didn't realise that.. i thought he is the one.. how simple minded can i be right? after a while thing got really messed up.. my depression getting worse, i keep on forgiving people that does not deserve my forgiveness.. i blame it on me.. all me.. when the fact is, its not my fault.. how naive.. i was imprisoned in my own thought.. it was embedded in my mind that everything that happens is my fault.. everything that went wrong in this relationship is my wrong.. i should not do this.. do that.. until at one point.. thought to myself.. "am i happy right now?...